Sunday 25 March 2012

on art



Sometimes I wonder why I am doing all this.
Wouldn't it be better just waking up in a forest, stretching out and create and create and create, just for the sake of it?
What is it all this promotion for and readings and flights taken and e-mails sent and calls made? What is the sense of it? What for?
Would it all have more sense if it took me further, somewhere better, somewhere where my name has a sort of importance?
What does importance exactly mean?
And when is somebody really an artist? Does the mere fact of producing a piece of art make you an artist even if you don't share it, you don't present it to an audience?
When does somebody start to be a poet and not just somebody throwing ink on pages?
Am I questioning my being a writer just because I lack fame?
Is it fame what makes the difference?

I am thinking and re-thinking about that and I cannot really reach any conclusion this morning, this morning in which I woke up and the only thing I desired was sleeping among your arms...I am questioning it when this flight is taking me away from you, another time.
And at the same time, even if often I cannot find the motivation of all this, I know I have to do it , I know my essence would not be the same without this almost vain expenditure of energy...

and I find myself caught in this whirl of doubt and uncertainty, once anew.

7 comments:

Tra cenere e terra said...

You have just to go ahead ... Create and share

Ciao Sun

Vale said...

Se il problema è la lack of fame, non credo che tu ci debba pensare più di tanto.Sarebbe forse meglio sapere che la tua casa editrice paga per esporre i tuoi libri in vetrina, che magari fanno anche pena perchè sono scritti male? Sarebbe meglio pubblicare perchè sei scesa a chissa quali compromessi con le grandi industrie editoriali? In una logica di mercato, una logica del prodotto, il talento viene sempre dopo il return on investment. Non so se ho reso l'idea. Ma è un discorso così lungo e complesso e pieno di spine. Che te lo dico a fare, carissima.

Baci

Sunshine said...

yes maybe juast go ahead...and love and love and believe!

Sunshine said...

non è solo la lack of fame,però è anche vero che se dopo tanto sbatti arrivassero maggiori risultati, bhe tutto avrebbe più senso no?

Tandoori said...

I am thinking and re-thinking l'ho capito...

Fog said...

once anew....once anew...once anew

enzorasi said...

Pensi che in Inghilterra potrebbero pubblicare quel che scrivo?
Io in ogni caso ti contatto perchè seguivi un mio blog svanito nel web e ne ho riaperto un altro. Bye